The Greater Things in Life

3 11 2009

Have you ever had one of those moments when your focus sharpens, a shiver runs up your body, your heart speeds up and the earth shakes? I’m not talking dirty, either, people! I’m talking about running across a certain quote, a movie, a person, a song, a place or a picture that has such a deep and hidden meaning to you and you alone that it becomes somewhat of an obsession, burning up your brain as you try to swallow it all up. Anything that provokes days of convoluted thoughts and inspires new resolutions for your life qualifies.

I am a firm believer that everyone should seek out these kind of moments, because they are what forces us to the highest skies, to plumb the depths of our spirits. For me personally, the days have been weighing down more and more lately; the daily grind is becoming all too tedious and crude, like a gritty old movie. Halloween morning I woke up and I had a rather odd moment in which I realized that I didn’t like the people I was with and that this wasn’t where I wanted to be. At that exact moment, I wanted to be sitting alone on top of a mountain, staring at the blue sky, more than anything in the world. It put me in a very pissy mood, to say the least.

It’s hard to explain, but I hope you all understand the kind of thoughts I’m talking about. I don’t want to call it a revelation or an epiphany, it’s too serious and yet it trivializes the thing. I had that moment, a conscious thought, word for word in my head, “I want a change in my life.” Then I went home and ran across this quote, which I sat and re-read at least ten times before immediately copying it down.

“There’s nothing to mourn about death any more than there is to mourn about the growing of a flower. What is terrible is not death but the lives people live or don’t live up until their death. They don’t honor their own lives, they piss on their lives. They shit them away. Dumb fuckers. They concentrate too much on fucking, movies, money, family, fucking. Their minds are full of cotton. They swallow God without thinking, they swallow country without thinking. Soon they forget how to think, they let others think for them. Their brains are stuffed with cotton. They look ugly, they talk ugly, they walk ugly. Play them the great music of the centuries & they can’t hear it. Most people’s deaths are a sham. There’s nothing left to die.” — Buk. (via Love Letter to the Universe)

It’s an understatement to say this affected me deeply. Sounds silly, yeah yeah, but face it, the very largest portion of what makes us takes place invisibly as neruons fire in the darkness of our skulls. For the past months, I’ve felt like I was walking through quicksand, a weight on my head and a little ball of panic in my stomach. I can’t explain it, but I feel on fire now, electric, confident and creative, unstoppable, a warrior; a Leo for the first time in a long time. Be on the look out for things that will follow you your whole life, don’t let them pass you by. If you spend your days looking for tiny amazements, you’re that much more likely to find them.

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Dress for Success

12 09 2009

Ever thrown open your closet door and stood there staring blankly, thrown into a whirling morass of boredom and despair? Ever realized that every possible combination of your clothing has been worn over… and over… and over… Well, sometimes regular garments just don’t cut it. Some days you want a little extra in your step, a special sparkle in your eye! To find your way out of the Dull Clothes Doldrums, a fashionista’s equivalent of writer’s block, draw inspiration from something you’ve never used as a model before; even the strangest or most random things can result in fun outfits. Try these inspirations to start out with.

Dress like a mermaid! Sure, you can go Disney style on this one and superglue some shells to your tatas. A more tasteful, still funky, and much less painful option includes fantastical shoes that look carved from coral, a fish-scale skirt, and rich inky-blue sequins. For added fun, carry around a bottle of bubbles and blow them at everyone you see.

Dress like a moon maiden! Delicate bejeweled sandals like moonbeams adorn your feet, sheer chiffon your body, and a glimmering unicorn-lure of silver feathers glints in your hair. Dip your nails into melted pearls and blow kisses with sugary-pink lips to the man in the moon.

Dress like Jane Eyre! Entice your very own deliciously brooding Rochester with a ladylike silk blouse worn over a woolen violet dress. Sensible gray boots cover your (gasp!) ankles, while a locket provides the perfect place for sketches of your forbidden love. Who says skin is the only way to be sexy? Wear this with inordinate amounts of common sense and courage.

Dress like a secret agent! Perhaps carrying around an actual handgun isn’t the best idea, but in head-to-toe sexpot black and an electric yellow tank, you’ll have plenty of kickass attitude without one. Paint your nails intense scarlet, bite your lip provocatively at cute boys or girls everywhere, walk with businesslike speed but with a swing to your hips, and make up scandalous pasts for each person you see.

Futher sources of inspiration: Movie characters. Imaginary friends. Fairy tales. Favorite beverages. Songs. Scents. Types of rocks. Places. Animals that don’t exist. Animals that do exist. Aliens. Local legends. Deep caves. Weather.





Focus on the Now

11 07 2009

Sometimes I feel like I’m wasting my life, like it’s all going by too fast and for no purpose (I know, I know, melodramatic). This is patently ridiculous- I’m not yet seventeen, and if I look at my life objectively, I know that I’m doing pretty all right and contributing my fair share to improving our world. I believe that this ennui is just a result of being an itty bitty human in our great big world, floating in the sea of problems.

The doldrums are no place to live your life, though, at any age! Sometimes it takes a reminder to discover anew that our lives are generally not as bad as we think. Just take a big breath of beautiful air, pet your dog, significant other or best friend, and take a moment to count off all the wicked awesome parts of your life happening right now this instant. Realize that you are fabulous and you are making this world better with every step you take, even if they are small.