We Salute You, Flying Tomato

11 03 2010

To-may-to, to-mah-to… no matter how you look at it Shaun White is hot. He fulfills my entire cute-guy list- which, honestly, consists mostly of a cute butt and red hair. I had an awful day which involved watching disgustingly cute 18th century couples kiss on stage (Pride and Prejudice) which thoroughly depressed me, so I am going to shamelessly ogle Shaun White.

Plus… the Double McTwist 1260? Really? Thanks to his signature move this kid has a pretty spicy pickup line all ready to go. I’d double mctwist his…. nevermind.

Winter X Games Athletes





Ennui

2 03 2010

My week has not gone well. So far, I have:

– Forgotten to turn in a mildly important paper on time because I was late to class. AGAIN. My fault, I know, but it’s irritating me that I am having trouble with being on time. Normally punctuality is something that is vitally important to me; the fact that classes aren’t uppermost in my mind right now is telling me senioritis has set in badly.

– Spent $10 on a deliciously-scented candle which, when lit, only scents the air for about an inch around the flame. Useless. Bath & Body Works, I used to love you, but your candles suck.

–  Been irrationally jealous upon discovering that a boy I hooked up with a few times this summer is dating a girl. I don’t have feelings for him- he’s not especially good in bed and is a year younger than me, although he is cute. So why do I get pissed off when he moves on? It’s not like I ever encouraged him in any way; in fact, probably the opposite. But now I catch myself giving him come-hither looks in the hallways and plotting to steal him. (I know. I am going to hell.) I have these horrible patterns with guys and I hate it. Dysfunction is my first, middle and last name, apparently.

– Felt generally awful. I have been fairly busy, but it’s just been one of those weeks when I sit and try not to cry because I am thinking about random things and making myself sad. I seem to go through cycles- happy and optimistic, then a week or two of plummeting grumpiness, bittersweet reminiscence and anger. Slamming someone’s head into a locker never sounded so good. I find myself cussing more, as well. Teenage hormones are terrible, terrible things.

– Yelled and snapped at many, many people who in all likelihood didn’t deserve my vitriol. God, I sound like a freaking prize, don’t I?

So, I am playing doctor (not accredited, but still better than Dr. Phil) and prescribing myself sunshine, assuming the blasted atmosphere cooperates, quality pet time, sweet tea, some good upbeat music (Train, anyone?), delicious incense, cleaning, and writing (simply by putting this down, I feel a bit better). Anyone feel like sharing their happy-jumpstart techniques?





Senior Quote

25 02 2010

So, I have been racking my brains to choose a senior quote for the yearbook but I just… I have so many favorite quotes! I can’t do this alone; I need y’all to input your wonderful input. Yes, I am one of those lame weirdos who obsess over things like this, and I also obsess over the epic and magical words of others, which adds up to massive and unnecessary anxiety. Some of these are way too long, but let me know which ones you like best, as I can always pluck out a good sentence. These are roughly in order from favorite to least favorite, although I am rather madly in love with all of them.

“Every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements – the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution and for life – weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way for them to get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode. So, forget Jesus. The stars died so that you could be here today.” – Lawrence Krauss

“There’s nothing to mourn about death any more than there is to mourn about the growing of a flower. What is terrible is not death but the lives people live or don’t live up until their death. They don’t honor their own lives, they piss on their lives. They shit them away. Dumb fuckers. They concentrate too much on fucking, movies, money, family, fucking. Their minds are full of cotton. They swallow God without thinking, they swallow country without thinking. Soon they forget how to think, they let others think for them. Their brains are stuffed with cotton. They look ugly, they talk ugly, they walk ugly. Play them the great music of the centuries & they can’t hear it. Most people’s deaths are a sham. There’s nothing left to die.” – Charles Bukowski

“Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things that escape those who dream only by night.” -Edgar Allan Poe (this is something I have considered getting tattooed on me… but just feels wrong for the yearbook)

“Don’t clap too loudly- it’s a very old world.” -Player in “Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead” (Just found this but it was one of those things that I had to stop and re-read about five times)

“Don’t do anything by half. If you love someone, love them with all your soul. When you go to work, work your ass off. When you hate someone, hate them until it hurts.” -Henry Rollins (I have no clue who this man is, but he’s apparently my kinda dude)

“I’m not interested in preserving the status quo; I want to overthrow it.” -Machiavelli

So? Thoughts? Also, photos of my very first tattoo will be up soon. That’s right, I’ve joined the tattooed masses!





Lovely Links

24 02 2010

First things first; a warning of sorts. The other night my friends and I were at a club in which 911 had to be called because a girl, whose ‘friends’ had let her sit passed out in the corner for the last 40 minutes, was convulsing. She either had alcohol poisoning or OD’d on something else. So, guys, when/if you drink or do drugs, be careful, ok? Just pace yourself. You’re awesome, don’t die because of something that lame. And for god’s sake, don’t do them with people who will dump you in a corner.

All right. On to some interesting things from the vast internet.

  • Totally amazing photos of amazing people. This will blow your mind, I promise. Includes Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Bob Marley to name just a few.
  • Ahhh, the eternal existential plight of the lonely hipster… Furniture has never been so funny.
  • This is a list of some of the most interesting psychological experiments done.
  • Ever had a little too much and sent a text that maybe you shouldn’t have? Oh yeah. Been there. Soooo been there…. You will split your sides laughing, I promise you.
  • This has pictures of hot guys, but also some interesting history about male modeling. And also hot guys.
  • Someday, someone will invent a machine that Tweets our every thought automatically to the internet, and then the world will implode. Until then we can make fun of illustrated celebrity tweets.
  • Even bacteria get lonely… I think that is possibly the most evocative and heart wrenching headline I have ever come across.
  • Gorgeous, gorgeous, curve-multiplying jaw-dropping traffic stopping dresses.

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I want this dress so bad. Like bacon. Except, maybe not the model’s makeup.





Radical Self ♥

10 02 2010

So, Gala Darling, that candyfloss-tressed purveyor of all things that glitter, smell good and improve people’s lives, has started a project titled Radical Self Love, to be found here. She asked in her lastest post some questions, and, since I have been delinquent in my blogging and have time to kill, I’m answering them!

What does RADICAL SELF LOVE mean to you? My first thought is dirty. My second involves acceptance and appreciation of all aspects of yourself, using all your potential, and not being afraid to go to work improving aspects that need improvement.

If you were engaging in RADICAL SELF LOVE on a daily basis, what would that look like? Hmm… Ideally I would quit yelling at people who really don’t deserve it to relieve my stress.

What small pieces of that can you bring into your life TODAY? Well, today being nearly over, I am applying this to tomorrow. I’m going to work hard at being more cheerful and less antagonistic, less of a worrier, and more happy. Also, great shoes.

Which qualities or attributes would you like to bring into your own life via the application of RADICAL SELF LOVE? Less stress, more self confidence. Less procrastination, more activity. Less anger, more smiles. Less contained, more present in the moment.

What beliefs do you currently hold that are stifling your regular expression of RADICAL SELF LOVE? You know how most people have a filter between their brain and mouths? I was born without that. It’s a terrible disease, often leading to symptoms causing one to be mistaken for a donkey. My personality is awfully confrontational, and as much as it irritate me, I think a little more thought for other’s feelings/opinions might get rid of some bumps in the road.

Are the people & activities in your life HELPING or HINDERING you in your quest for RADICAL SELF LOVE? Would you be better off without them? Oh boy. Well, luckily most if not all of my friends are positive or at least not negative influences. I don’t feel like I have to be fake around them, which is great (not that I would). Activity wise, I really need to stop being so lazy. I make plans in my head and then when the time comes I’m just… so…. tired….

How can you reflect RADICAL SELF LOVE in the way you speak, the way you dress, the way you decorate your house, the work you do? Speak- I need to quit dumbing down my vocabulary because people snicker. Dress- Again, less laziness. My hair hasn’t been properly styled in weeks because that extra ten minutes of sleep is so delicious. House- well, it’s my parents still. So I am rather stuck there. Work- I already love the volunteer work I do with the heat of a thousand novas. It’s amazing, it’s wonderful, it’s what I eventually want to do with my life. So that’s already radical!

Who could you use as a RADICAL SELF LOVE role model? Jane Goodall, Gandhi and Rue McClanahan all come to mind. 😉





Upgrade!

29 01 2010

Instead of planning, concoct dastardly plots.

Instead of liking, adore wildly.

Instead of watching, plunge in.

Instead of listening, sing along.

Instead of thinking, dream stunning dreams.

Instead of typical, be exceptional.

Instead of dull, be dizzyingly neon.

Instead of quiet, be eloquent and brilliant.

Instead of just another face, be the only face they can see.





Word of the Day

25 01 2010

Empyreal ~ of, like or pertaining to heaven; sublime; skyward.